Have you ever found yourself so occupied with all the responsibilities in your life that you forgot what is really important?
My wakeup call came a few weeks ago when out of the blue, I became very sick and ended up in the Emergency Room with a fever of 103.2. The Doctor leaned over the rail of my bed and looked directly in my eyes and said “you almost didn’t make it here in time." My eyes filled with tears and my mind started spinning. What does that mean? Are you saying I could die?
At that moment I started thinking about my life. I realized I have been so busy trying to keep everything balanced, that I lost sight of what is really important, my relationship with God. I have been so busy “doing” for God, I forgot that He really just wants me to “be” with Him. God wants to spend time with me, to have a personal relationship with me. Matthew 6:33 says "Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Seek God first and then He will show me what He wants me to “do” for Him. I need to quit running ahead of Him and just spend time with Him!
Thankfully, after five days in the hospital, I am home and on a slow path to recovery. There are still no answers to what caused me to get so sick. The doctor’s are baffled because all my tests results came back negative. My confidence lies in the knowledge that He is in control, so I don’t have to be. So for now, I rest in Him when the answers don’t come. I'm not alone!
Just Be Held, By Casting Crowns
Hold it all together, everybody needs you strong.
But life hits you out of nowhere, and barely leaves you holding on
And when you're tired of fighting, chained by your control
There's freedom in surrender, lay it down and let it go
So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away
You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world's not falling apart, it's falling into place
I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held
If you find yourself always “doing” for God and not "being" with Him, I encourage you to take some time and seek God first. He's waiting to hold you!
Be Blessed, Lisa